Out of My Comfort Zone

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Anyone who has learned another language will be able to sympathize with me. I am not talking about taking a foreign language in high school or college but, actually, living in the country of the language you are trying to learn. I have been in El Salvador for almost a year and I my Spanish has improved tremendously. However, I still have a ton of learning to do. Last year I took a class with the Master's Commission and three other American's. The class is CCI, which means Christian Camps International. These are classes to become an instructor in the campementos we do monthly. I passed the first CCI and I am now taking the second one. However, this class is quite a bit different. It started yesterday and the teacher of this class told me I know enough Spanish to be answering and doing it all in Spanish. That in itself is hard because he speaks English well so it is easier for me to just answer him in English, but no. He also randomly chooses people to read sections of the manuel, myself included. I have always been a great reader in English and loved reading out loud. Now I know how people feel who struggle with reading and are forced to read in front of people. I get all panicky, my heart starts beating faster, I stumble over words, I do not even pronounce words that I do know, correctly. I have always been one of those people who does not mind being chosen to answer questions or to share what is on my mind. Now that I am in a Spanish class it is very different, I dread being chosen. It is so frustrating knowing what you want to say but not being able to properly say what you want to. I have definately started to think long and hard before I speak which is something I always had a problem doing. Another reason this class is a bit overwhelming is last time I had three other Americans taking it with me so if I was confused or did not quite catch the directions I could ask someone. I know that this class is going to be great for me. It is out of my comfort zone and forcing me to speak spanish, read spanish, and answer in spanish with no one to use as a crutch.

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